I have accepted the fact that I am not at a point in my life to have the body of my 18 year old self. I was in the gym for hours every weekday, walking all over campus to classes, and living on ramen noodles and coffee. I am, however, on a mission to get closer to that version of my physical self than where I have been lately. It’s not a body image thing- I’m not unhappy with myself- but I know I can be healthy and feel light, active, and fit and be about 2 sizes smaller. (That sounded like a yogurt commercial.) I’ve started working with a personal trainer and keeping a food journal and incorporating lots more green food into my daily diet. I believe in the benefits of the Mediterranean diet, and have largely based my meals around that system. Lots of leafy greens, olive oil, whole grains, fish, nuts, fruit, and veggies. Most of my grocery shopping takes place in the produce and seafood sections. I like that. Lots of soup, too. 15 bean soup and vegetable soup in chicken broth are a few staples. I also love to throw a ton of spinach into a pot of chicken broth and fill myself up with that. Greek yogurt, granola, broccoli, salmon, avocado, apples, nutty butters, dark salad tossed in EVOO and balsamic vinegar, red wine, and whole wheat pasta show up pretty regularly in my food journal.
At this point, my biggest struggle is portion control. I love, love, love food. Cooking, preparing, chopping, smelling, eating- I love every step. I also love the satisfying feeling of being 100% full. Not stuffed, but completely satisfied. This would probably be alright if my goal was maintaining, but I’m on a mission to lose weight. That’s all about caloric deficit. More calories out than calories in. This is not new information, but I’m not that great at it. I’ve started working out with a personal trainer, and she’s helping me get a better idea of appropriate serving sizes and food intake for weight loss.
I had this idea that I could make a plan and it would just work in my life from day one and the weight would melt right off. It hasn’t been that simple, but the slow and steady method is working. Gotta get rid of the squishy, and tighten up the good stuff. That’s the goal. I know what my personal best looks like, and I want to be as close to that as is realistically possible. Alison (my trainer) works me hard, and almost everything we do at the gym I can modify and do at home. It’s been really great. I’m learning all kinds of health stuff and really want to keep this in my life. I have been on the healthy bandwagon in my mind for a long time, and now I’m really learning what that actually means in day to day life. I love it!